I have reached that point. The point that I knew I would reach in this process of moving. The point I’ve been consistently giving back over to the Lord because fear is not of Him. Over and over in the Bible He says “do not fear”, and even in 2 Timothy 1:7 “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of a sound mind.”
But what is this point that I have reached, you may ask? The fear of the unknown.
The fear of leaving everything I’ve grown to know and accept for the past 7 years. The fear of not knowing what to expect as we move forward.
But then I remind myself, or rather, God reminds my heart, that He is with us no matter what.
Isaiah 41:10 “Fear no, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Matthew 28:20 “teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”
He is there already preparing a place for us to call a temporary home in that little corner of Earth that He is entrusting to us for a time. He is already working in the hearts of those we will meet and share life with when we move. He is working in my heart and mind, placing dreams and passions I didn’t know could exist in my life a few years ago, in preparation for our journey that is before us.
Therefore, even through the fear and doubt, I know I can trust the One who has never failed me. I can boldly step forward one step at a time knowing that He will guide my foot. And that excites me. That feeling of joy, hope, love, and excitement for what may be even though I don’t know all the details yet. This is what keeps me going.
Packing one box at a time, painting one accent wall a week, setting up appointments for apartments, and purchasing plane tickets. The knowledge that I’m not doing this alone. Not only do I have the God that created everything before me, I have a loving family by my side. I am not alone. And there is comfort in that.
